As I'm sure everyone knows by now, on Friday morning a 20 year old male shot his mother at home and then proceeded to go to an Elementary School to shoot and kill 26 other people, 20 of which were children between the ages of six and seven. He also shot 6 teachers, including the school principal and physcologist. I won't go into all of the details of the horrific massacre but I will include a link here so you can see some of the victims yourself.
I've been trying for the last three days to wrap my head around this tragedy. But what I've come to understand is that there is no good reason for why this happened. It just did. The hardest part for me to deal with is the sheer number of innocent children who were mercilessly killed. I know terrible things happen all of the time, but this one especially really hit home. Maybe because of how young they were, maybe because I'm now a mother myself. But for whatever reason, I am extremely sensitive to this particular indescribably terrible act.
It has been hard for me to be around others since it happened because if I start to talk about it, I break down in sobs. If I'm not talking about it, I'm thinking about it and looking around me as everyone else seems to be just fine. I know that everyone deals with things differently. This is just how I am dealing with it. Learning everything I can about it, crying for those lost and for their families, and then eventually I will need to find peace.
I do find comfort in the knowledge I have that these children (and the adults too) who lost their lives way too early in life are now in the arms of our Heavenly Father. Their family's will all be together again one day. In the meantime, I know that they are being taken care of. I imagine my aunt who raised six children and passed away, and my grandma who raised nine children and also passed away, are both there with open arms for those little children. There is no shortage of comfort for them there and I can only pray that their families who have to live without them now are also being taken care of and find some peace with their loss.
Please continue to keep them in your prayers. Pray also for the first responders (can you imagine?) and even the family of the shooter. I can't imagine what they must be feeling.